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A long time ago, in a hospital far, far away...
When I was born and popped my bald head into the world, in that hospital in Brooklyn back in the late 60’s, I looked up at the nurses cleaning me and with clear purpose and committed resolve I told them that as sure as I breathed I had a lot of depth crammed into my fresh new mind begging to be unleashed.
Yes, I had big goals even at that young age. Maybe my memory is a bit foggy on how old I actually was when I first said that but I was a story teller at a young age, and as early as the age of seven had known that I wanted to write stories for a living, because to me, writing stories WAS living. I had goals, I had dreams, I had several story ideas, and plans to write and publish them.
Yet things happened, as is the course of life, and I allowed myself to be sidetracked from my path. Here I am, in my 40’s and bald again, and seemingly as far from reaching my goals as the day I was born. Like I said, “seemingly”. It’s been said that we’re never too old to begin reaching for our dreams, but with so many years of missed opportunities behind me, the fewer years ahead are leaving me with a daunting, overwhelming feeling.
For that reason I must remind myself often of these three quotes:
> “The important thing is this: To be able at any moment to sacrifice what we are for what we could become.” --Charles DuBois
> “Change is the law of life. And those who look only to the past or present are certain to miss the future.” --John F. Kennedy
> “The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers.” --M. Scott Peck
And that some of the finest authors got their starts at late ages is a bit reassuring. Surrendering to a life of unfulfillment is not an option.
I have a novel completed (but requiring re-editing and certain structure changes) and several more that I had begun but not finished. I have a long list of planned and structured stories awaiting my return, including my long developed 9 book sci-fi/fantasy series which I will refer to here under it's abbreviated title, PGW, which as a child in the story’s early stages I had designed and drawn many of the star ships and robots that the story involved; a 2-book Star Wars series with the first book being nearly fully crafted out already; and several more sci-fi, spiritual, and dramatic novels planned and waiting to be worked on. I wish I could redo the 27 years behind me and work on my 27 or so novel ideas during that time, but as I can’t go back and only go forward, I’ll have to get as many of those planned projects finished as I can, as best I can do.
What this website is not:
This isn't meant to promote my craft for professional purposes. A lot of what you will see here will be in the rough stages. I have only begun this site as a way to show my stuff to friends and acquaintances—stuff which includes drawings I had done as a child to accompany my science fiction stories, photographs I shot in my twenties as a professional photographer, and messages I wrote later on as a writer and blogger. This site is merely for me to show those out there (points outward) what is still in here (points inward) needing to get out and be revealed.
So for the time being, some of what I have out there, from the heart and mind of me, is here, from my mind to yours.
Welcome to my mind...